Tonight she was Lucky

As she sits on her bed
Waiting for the clock to move faster
Her mind races and never stops
She only thinks about the disaster.
How did she get here in her life?
She seemed like the innocent one
But now she is angry and punished
For wanting her life to be done.
She takes off her watch
It hides her dakest deed
She touches the deep scars
And wants them once more to bleed
Tears fall from her face
And make a small puddle on the floor
She doesn't want her mom to hear
So she slowly closes the door.
Just like the night before
She tries not to think about life
For she knows if she doesn't stop now
She will take out her sharp knife.
It's blade is thin and shiney
And can cut through any stone
But in her case it cuts through any vein and bone.
Tonight she is lucky,
Someone calls out her name
Just in time to stop her
From giving into her pain.
But she knows it will happen again
Just like last night and tonight
She will hope that someone will stop her
From ending her pitaful life.

Fighting Since This Morning

Since this morning
We've been fighting
Striking eachother
With bolts of lightening
I just want to stop
All of this insanity
cuz it's bringing me down
Don't use such profanity.
All my life i've waited
for the day we don't fight.
Wouldn't it be great
to find a new ray of light?
We'll never get along
but I'll still love you,
but the question is,
will you still love me too?
What have i done?
To many words have been said
I can't turn back the clock
So we'll lay here in our beds
Thinking of a way
to work things out,
but all we want to do
is yell, scream and shout.
this is the end of the worst,
It has come and started to pass,
but all it comes down to is,
how long will it last?





Fit of Rage

100th floor
Never ending heighth
Looking down and just feeling
The wind blowing in my heighth
Everything  I want
Come to an END!
Fly with the lame bird
Down Down, END!
My own light
Fading, I blame
It's all your fault
No one else to blame
Don't blame manson
Don't put this on Eminem
Put this on your mind forever
Its all your fault.
Can't find it in myself to say sorry
Fall Fall
I've been falling all my life
On the 50th floor now
Passed by it so fast
Its all a blur
30th floor
10th
One more tear
one more breath
Fuck you world!
Fuck you Bin Ladin!
Fuck you all
5th floor
What have I done?
I have a moment of doubt
What if?
I'm only human
4,3,2.......
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What Thinking Brings

As I sit on my bed
Thinking way too much,
In my scared hand,
There is a knife I clutch.

My house is empty and quiet
There is no one to stop me.
They've all gone away,
And finally let me be.

I don't trust this knife,
Nor do I trust my mind.
By the end of the day
It's death my mind might find.

My flesh burns for blood
My mind aches in pain.
Reality starts to blur
Is there something more to gain?




What I Think About

What do I think about
As you leave me alone
I try to make you understand
But you chill me to the bone

You try to distract me
To make my mind heal
It's all too confusing
But death I know is real

You try to get into my hed
But my mind won't let me out
My lips don't make a shoud
But my brain lets out a shout

This world offers no solution
I see pain hereand overthere
It seems it wants me to die
I see death everyday; Everywhere

Why do I go on?
How did I get this far?
Who made me live on?
I want ti know who you are.

To these dwellings
There is no answer
They'll boil and spread
Until they kill like a cancer.